One thing that keeps me up nights with this whole ‘no job/no money’ thing is Christmas.† I don’t worry about not getting my Dad or brother or other people gifts.† They will understand.† I do worry about Keilee.† She has never been a child who wants things.† Quite the opposite.† But it is Christmas.† And 9 days later is her birthday, her 13th birthday.† That is a big one.
Keilee and I have a journal that we write back and forth in.† No set schedule, just whenever we think of it or have something to say.† Yesterday she wrote to me.† This is what it said, word by word [well I did correct her spelling ]
I read your note.† You are very good with words, sorry I am not.†
My tummy was hurting me very much and you took such good care of me. You always take care of me in every way.† Thank you.
Christmas is coming up, Wow the year has flown by.† I know you are worried about my birthday and Christmas.† I wanted to tell you not to worry because all I want for Christmas is:
- Snuggling with you while drinking hot chocolate.
- Playing games with you.
- Baking goodies while dancing to Christmas songs
- Riding around looking at Christmas lights
- Decorating for Christmas
To me that is what Christmas is about.† I don’t† need things that a month later I will forget.† I want memories of an amazing Christmas with my Mommy.† That being said, I am sorry that you won’t have much this Christmas.† I hope handmade things are still something you like.†
I love you,
Her heart is so lovely. Now lest you believe our life is always shared hugs and love and bluebirds flying around, she does drive me nuts at times and I do the same to her.† We live with each other 24/7.† Just us.† Tempers flare, rooms don’t get cleaned, huffiness happens.† But oh I love this child.† I am so blessed to be her Mamma.† I thank God for her every.single.day.
“What I wanted most for my daughter was that she be able to soar confidently in her own sky, whatever that may be.” ~Helen Claes