I have been thinking about this post for days. 2012 What could I say about it? The first thing is the fact that I was laid off 6 months out of 12. No money coming in. No unemployment, no anything.
But the thoughts that come to mind aren’t how hard this year has been but how incredibly blessed we have been. †Blessed beyond belief. Thinking back on all of the people who have blessed us, these are my thoughts…. I didn’t deserve this. I am not good enough or Godly enough. I have a temper, I am so far from perfect is isn’t funny.†As Jacob says to God, “I am not worthy of the least of all the deeds of steadfast love and all the faithfulness that you have shown to your servantî (Genesis 32:10). But through God’s mercy we were given blessings time and time again.
I have learned so much about myself the past few months. I am stronger now, my faith is stronger. †I think that Keilee has learned lessons. That “things” aren’t important. She has always known that but it was brought home to us both time and time again. Because we have had a wonderful year.
Last week 3 things happened within 24 hours; my computer stopped working, my microwave stopped working, and I tore my last contact. We were taking the garbage out and Keilee said, “Why has so many bad things happened all together?” †I told her there were Mothers and Fathers and husbands and children in Newtown who would give anything they had to have ONLY those things to worry about. It is all about perspective, always seeing that glass as half full. I have pretty much always been that way but the last 6 months have taught me this even more. And my Daddy bought us a microwave, a dear friend gave us money and I was able to order parts for my computer and have a friend fix it for free and I was able to order a contact.
As I look back at my posts for this year I smile at all the amazing things we did. Ways we have grown closer. Laughter, hugs, conversations, giggles shared. †We have so much to be thankful for; a house to live in, our health, the ability to educate my sweet girl at home, food to eat, a warm bed, a crazy Lab who loves us unconditionally, clothes to wear,a church that is perfect for us, friends and family that mean so much to us.
I have thought long and hard about my word for “2013”. Kei and I have talked about it and decided our word will be GIVE. We want to be a blessing to as many people as possible. We want to give; of our time, our gifts, money when we can. We learned how much a $25 gift certificate can help. We learned how an email, a card, a phone call can lift you up so much. †How a smile, a kind word, holding a door opened, a touch can make a difference in someone’s day.
Thank you to everyone who prayed for us, sent emails, sent cards, called, sent money and gift cards. You all know who you are, WE know who you are [well the ones who signed things, they were so many who just sent us things anonymously]. †I am typing this with tears in my eyes, a lump in my throat and so much love and thankfulness inside of me. 2 words…2 little words that cannot begin to convey how much it meant to us. Thank you.
My job starts back in about 2 weeks. It is for 5 weeks then I think we have another one possibly lined up. It will be very strange to have a paycheck every week. And nice. But we both learned that there are so many things that are more important.
Happy New Years Eve,
Karen and Keilee
Our prayers should be for blessings in general, for God knows best what is good for us. ~Socrates
Our real blessings often appear to us in the shape of pains, losses and disappointments; but let us have patience and we soon shall see them in their proper figures. ~Joseph Addison
Everything won’t go your way, but it will go God’s way” ~Unknown