January 3, 2018

18
She is 18. This amazing person who made me a Momma turns 18 today .

I’m not gonna lie. This is a hard one. For both of us .
For me because HOW CAN SHE BE 18? For her because she worries that she should have her entire life figured out. And she doesn’t. Oh she has dreams and goals. Too many of them. I assure her it will all work out. I remind her that Jesus already can see what her life will look like and it will be beautiful .

I have so many emotions. So many feelings. It’s always been just me and her. She’s been my center for so long. She got me through the death of my Momma. She brought me closer to Jesus.
I told her the other day that one of the hardest things for me to learn was to put Jesus ahead of her. But I did learn. Because I know He is the only one that loves her more than I do .
I can’t wait for her to soar. I wish she was still playing with dolls. I can’t wait to see her blossom into the beautiful woman I know she will be. I wish we were still having tickle fights on the bed. I can’t wait to see her conquer the world. I wish we were still making sheet forts in the den .

Some days she acts 10. Some days she acts 80. She runs her own business like a boss but loves snuggling with me and her dog .
Life goes by in a blink. And the swiftness of it breaks my heart at times .
I sit and remember and the memories make me smile. And bring me to tears .

But I can not wait to see who you become my love .
You have made my life so breathtakingly beautiful. You astound me with the wonderfulness of you . Every day with you has been a marvelous adventure.
Happy birthday Keilee. I love you to Pluto and back . Because the moon is not far enough.

I adore you,
Momma